some random moment from Full House I gif’ed
Chillin. Life. Future. Past. Sadness. Happiness. When getting One of them the exact opposite is turning away. What’s being balanced. What is balanced??? Everyone has their own definition. Everyone is so different. The most important thing to me is the least important to someone else. Crazy right. March 9 2012 in my car the street lights are out in the street and I’m just having one of those nights… I wish I could just let everything go. I wish I could just let everything go. Most of the time I’m fine but nights like these. I’m just so here. Here meaning the current situation. God? Why am I here? What’s the point? Chasing all these dreams seem so selfish. Simplicity. I wish I was young again. Lol. Time couldn’t get any faster. Technology just makes everything so easier it’s disgusting. Soon there will be no surprises. Everything will just revolve around money. How to be a simple guy? How to be amused with every moment in life? How to be grateful for all the blessings you have? How? How! Really! Open your eyes and really look deeper. So deep that it hurts. Everything is a blessing. You cannot explain what heaven is like but you can sure as heck can try! Life has problems that’s guaranteed. Being a master of dealing with it is what defines your life. Work hard and praise God. Praise God in every situation in your life. You should be fine if you do those 2 things. Growing up isn’t so bad. Of course, nothing is better than being a kid but the moment you give someone life, everything will fall into place. Doesn’t make so much sense right now but it will. Love life. No regrets. No complaints.
Shit, time has flown hoe, used to just chill all day. Smoke drink and fuck around. Didn’t care about tomorrow yesterday just the current moment. Hahah thinking about to, my main priority was my friends, bitches and poker. Well not really poker but that was the only way to get money. When $10 was fuckin like $1000. That’s damn true. Fuckin finding anything and trying to come up some how. That was just a few years ago. Now my life is payin bills and that’s it. Haha life was easier back then, chill. But just like my locked up dad says, who said life is easy. I just need to focus on the current situation and give it my all everyday. Shit crazy. Mann reminiscing feels pretty good tho. Chillin man. Sleep all day. Drink up. Haha problem was we didn’t have a plug to anyone 21. Now it’s easy as going to the store. Fuckin real shit. I don’t know what I’m referring to but yea real shit. Dios house was poppin back in the day. I wish I remember all the memories over there man. No specific order, Mickey/blacks nights with Elly and Derf in the garage. Talking about life as it would never come and look at me now 3 years into it. Haha shit. Started with me and dio just going to his house and playing guitar, finding gabe bondoc on big johns enemy with that one girl he liked, Nathan playing cs, young ass nigga with the love bed. Me and dio watching saw haha then eating instant noodles spillin and shit see the mice haha. Then fb came around. Turned that house into something else. Crazy ahha it was pretty tight. Despite all the shit I say about them now. They are my brothers they held me down for the toughest years in my life. Completely lost and having the worst times at the house. Mann without them I wouldn’t of gotten all that pussy hahah. Walking around woodrow getting jumped almost. Late night hypes to ihop hahah dios treat? Shit was fun man. Sonics. Boxing matches, smash brothers, nathans birthday, hella crazy and shit, strobe light nights, giggin with Derf and cantor, showcase games, walking from dios to Derfs hella times just for kicks man. Tahitifet, fb BBQ, the girls hahah fuckin cunts, fb myspace, fb songs, let me get this right shower song. Hiding ice creams in the freezer, microwavable burgers. Water bottles, dio having family problems and I was there alot of those times. Man me and dio where pretty close no homo. Nathan making grilled cheese sandwiches in his room, his homer fits and Nike design on his head haha. Holly and the other cat. Yves era, westblock era, walking from tracys every morning, ross days, haha, dj and me almost fighting over that shit, hella drama all the time, lil John almost beating my ass, sleeping under dips bed, blackout night with alex lim ahha, almost fighting roe and marine world, damn…. Tape back, boonget, bet!!! Come see meee, cb, pro club white tees, tees with writing on the name tags, secret ironing technique haha, girbauds, swimming at jackos house, making out with kitkat, menthol lights and newports, breaking in a black, smoking tricks with Elly, assigned drawers at dios, haha. Trading iPod for turquoise vans, bacon and egg breakfasts, that one sit down dinner at dios with wack champagne, puzzle fighter, the eviction of fb, old couches, suprising me on my bday, haha made me cry hashbrown thing, one peak. Too many other memories I know I’m missing at least 2 years worth. Just a random thought. Love.